Was it the Supreme at the very bottom of the Inconscient who
cast you up directly to the Supreme?
Yes. Because at the very bottom of the Inconscient is the Supreme. It
is the same idea as the highest height touching the deepest depth. The
universe is like a circle - it is represented by the serpent biting its
tail, its head touching its tail. It means that the supreme height
touches the most material matter, without any intermediary. I have
already said this several times. But that was the experience. I didn't
know what was happening. I expected nothing and ... it was stupendous -
in a single bound, I sprang up! If someone had had his eyes open, I
assure you he would have had to laugh: I was bent over, like this, more
and more, more and more, more and more, my head was just about to touch
my knees when suddenly - vrrrm! Straight, straight up, my head upright
in a single bound!
But as soon as you want to express it, it escapes like water
running through your fingers; all the fluidity is lost, it evaporates. A
rather vague, poetic or artistic expression is much truer, much nearer
to the truth - something hazy, nebulous, undefined. Something not
concretized like a rigid mental expression - this rigidity that the mind
has introduced right down into the Inconscient.
This vision of the Inconscient ... (Mother remains gazing for a moment) it
was the MENTAL Inconscient. Because the starting point was mental. A
special Inconscient - rigid, hard, resistant - with all that the mind
has brought into our consciousness. But it was far worse, far worse than
a purely material Inconscient! A 'mentalized' Inconscient, as it were.
All this rigidity, this hardness, this narrowness, this fixity - a
FIXITY - comes from the presence of the mind in creation. When the mind
was not manifested, the Inconscient was not like that! It was formless
and had the plasticity of something that is formless - the plasticity
has gone.
It is a terrible image of the Mind's action in the Inconscient.
page 232 - Mother's Agenda, volume 1, 11th
Nov. - 1958